Day 34

Good morning.

Well, it looks like my back didn't get all messed up as I thought it might. I'm still being certain to take it very easy on it, but for the moment anyway it's holding on. Let's keep praying it stays that way.

Yesterday was a good day for me. It was my birthday, and while it was filled with very little socializing or birthday-related partying, I still had a wonderful day. Helped, mostly, by the fact that I focused on taking care of myself, and treated myself to a few things.

I took myself out for another sushi dinner, since it was so good the night before. And I bought a couple of new books (including the auto-biography on Barack Obama), bought curtains and a new bedspread for my apartment, and re-arranged the furniture at my apartment (you'll see a slight difference behind the pictures today). I also did a big clean-up in anticipation of my friend coming to visit for a couple of days.

And I went to therapy. Perhaps it's not right to go to therapy on your birthday, but I did and I'm glad I did. We talked at length about how I'm feeling like my dis-connect from food and my old eating habits is like going through a break-up. And I compared it to the end of my last long-term relationship, and how I feel like I failed at both. My therapist did his best to convince me that while both relationships might not have worked out (i.e. failed as a verb, but perhaps even too harsh a word), I need to not think of them as failures (that is, the noun form), but to rather think of them as successful learning experiences. He's right on both subjects, and I will need to keep convincing myself of these things.

So anyway, that was now. Now, the facts.


Day 33 food:

Shake (banana, low-fat strawberry yougurt, ice, splash of OJ, banana)
Water
Tangerine
Water
Avacado roll (6 pcs.)
Spicy tuna roll (6 pcs.)
Beef and vege gyoza (6 pcs.)
Sparkling water
Water

Day 33 exercise: four long walks

Daily weight: 254 (down 33)


Today, and the next few days, will be interesting. With my friend in town, I need to make sure I make correct decisions at restaurants, and... tonight at poker, I told the host that I would have a piece of the birthday cake he's made for me. So, I will be eating a piece of yellow cake with chocolate frosting, a pudding center, and a layer of Oreos. Oh God... wish me luck in not dropping my entire head into the center of the cake and bobbing for Oreo crumbs.