Day 47

Yesterday I felt like things were getting back to normal.

Still, late at night, my mind wandered to cheating and how easy it was. But I was easily able to overcome that, which made me pretty happy. I did skip a breakfast shake again yesterday, but didn't feel hungry at all, and never really got hungry (even though I did devour my grilled chicken Caesar salad for lunch).

Other than that, not much else to report.

But, I did promise to talk about my other vices. So, today we'll talk drugs. Not all sorts of drugs, just one in particular. Pot. While I've come and gone on my usage of pot, up until January 1 of this year, I was using it pretty heavily, and it was running my life for me. While I think I agree with people that the drug itself is not addictive, the feeling you get when you're on it sure it. And that was pretty tough to give me. But, it's been almost seven weeks and I haven't had a lick of it. I've been tempted plenty of times, and I've even been offered it on a couple of occasions as well. But, so far I've turned it down or resisted the urges. I'm not sure that I'll never go back to it. And while I said that I would give myself 8 weeks or so to detox, at least, I think it's too early to consider going back. I simply don't trust myself yet to not binge eat while high.

So, that's the pot update. I'm very pleased that I've kept it at bay for so long. We'll see how long it lasts!


So, now the facts:

Day 46 food:

Water
Grilled chicken Caesar salad (entire order)
Water
Orange
Water
Chunky chicken gumbo (entire can, 2 servings)
Water

Day 46 exercise: Four long walks

Daily weight: 247 lbs. (down 40)


Today should be another good day. Work all day, therapy at the end of the day, then I'm going to see a friend do her stand-up at a club here in Hollywood. Should be fun!

Thanks for reading!